You were sent to me

Well,

I was single since Dec 13th 2007. My ex-boyfriend was living with me, but our relationship was going to hell. Everyday we realized that our love was just a mistake.
So, at that Christimas month, he told me he didn't want to keep dating me anymore. I suffered a lot, but I had to face it, and go on my way...

Six months later, at Jun 1st 2008, I was invited to a friend of mine, named Vagner Pax, to go out to have lunch with him. I was alone at home, without any plan to that day, so I accepted his invitation.

He lives far away from down-town, where I live. It lasts something like an hour driving till his town. When I got his home, he said he wouldn't cook any food at home, because he needed to see some frash air and to meet some friends, at Boca do Rio district. We went to his friend's house. I was introduced to Itamar and his boy, and than we went to a restaurant, and ate some barbecue there.

After lunching, Mr. Pax invited us to go to a LGBT beach named Aruba, close to his friend's house. I was not used to go to that place for years, but accepted to follow them.

Good surprise: A black and tall guy was announcing a openning gay pub. He approuch our table at the sand beach and gave us a small paper with some information about the pub and its address... Mr. Pax commented with me "wow, nice guy"... I agree with him, and completed: "he might be my angel, sent from the sky".

The guy was so much nice, that I did not could resist to call him back, and ask him for his phone number... He smiled an angelical smile, and pointed to his boyfriend, and answered: "That is my phone number". I got his inttention, and asked him good excuses.

His face was tattoed at my eyes, in a so strong way, that I could not forget his face anymore. For my luck, he and his boy came back to the pub I was drinking with my friends, and started to take pictures of a transexual guy that was performing a show there.

I stared at my angel all the time. He realized, and told his boyfriend... I took some pictures of him, using my cellphone, but my angel did not see that.

The love was making his own way between me and Silver. I really don't like to stay at a beach till the end of the day. But that afternoon, I resolved to go home only when I could give him my phone number. And I did it. I asked to the waitress to give him my contact. I was afraid of beein hited by his boyfriend, so I went to dance on other pub. When I realized that my Angel and his guy had gone, I returned to ask to the waitress about the result. She said he received my phone number and put in his pocket.

Later, when I was already at home, I took my cell phone and I saw it was 'out of service'. I turned it off and on, and sunddenly more than 10 callings came with the inscription "you have received callings while your phone was turned off". It was him. I called him back and he told me to avoid calling him back, explained me that he was in love with his guy, that we could be friends and on, but asked me not to press him about other kind of relationship... Ok. It was everything I could have at that time. And I accepted...

One week later, at Jun 7th, his boyfriend pub started to business. I went to the party, and since than I have gone there every week. And my dream is still alive!

I called him up several times, and talked a lot about me and his life. He is Taurus, from May 8th, 1986, lives in Simões Filho/Ba, plan to start studying at a Federal Techical School (CEFET) and on.

There it be the dates I visit or saw him, since the first time

Jun 1st - Aruba Beach
Jun 7th - At the pub openning
Jun 12th - At the pub
Jun 14th - At the pub
Jun 18th - I went to the pub, he was not there
Jun 19th - At the pub... (his five months with the boyfriend)
Jun 20th - At the pub twice: 1AM and 10PM
Jun 21st - At the pub
Jun 25th - He was not there
Jun 26th - At the pub
Jun 27th - At the pub
Jun 28th - At the pub
Jun 29th - He was not there

Jul 1st - At the pub. A month I met him for the first time. I saw a falling star, and asked a secret asking...
Jul 6th - He called me. I was in Angra dos Reis, Rio de Janeiro.
Jul 9th - At the pub
Jul 10th - At the pub, twice: at 1AM, and 10PM
Jul 13th - At the pub. I made an poetry: "At this cold weather, I would hold you, if I could to...
Jul 14th - At São Caetano Bus Stop. At 1AM. At 5AM I dreamed of you.
Jul 14th - At the pub, I told him I had dreamed of him.
Jul 16th - At the pub. I was served with massas before his boyfriend. I was holded by him twice, in a special way, very close.
Jul 17th - At the pub, I saw you. You served me fried meat with green sliced tomate, and said "Here it be, missieur". I chatted with my friend Louise after writing at my kidnape: "He is like Midas, everything he touches become gold", concerning the meal, so, I wrote this "Midas: green tomate become gold". Silver and I talked about "Aruba meeting" and about my desire of beeing with him together as one. He said that evetything (every dream) has its own time to come true.
Jul 18th - I went to the bar with Martin Jr, driving my car. So, I could not drink any alcohol, because the law. I drank Coke all the night, while Jr drank Beer.
I order barbecue with salad (the same dish from yesterday), and a portion of French Fries. I asked to the waiter (Silver), if the meet was from Simões Filho, and he answered "not, but the waiter is"... When he served my Coke, I said "the Coke might be very tastefull, because you touched it", and he replyed "yes, and, if I could I would enter the glass to be drank by you"... WOWOOO... When you brought the meet, you said "As the French would say, 'bon apetit'...
I asked him "how have you been", and he answered "I have been nice, and turning better". I camplained "oh, so it is not good - for me" (Because I guess he "was going well with his boyfriend"). But he explained: "I am turning better, because I am getting freedom, and now I am not completely in love with him". I smiled: "Oh, that sounds nice".
The night was wonderful. I stayed at the pub till 1AM, so, I saw you again... at
Jul 19th - I saw you again... And when we say bye, I hold you close to me and said at your ear "please, call me up, call me up", and you smiled... A Martin' friend had a yellow-colored hair. You said you'd like to paint your hair like him. And asked me a question: "Valdeck, it looks good for me?", and I agreed: "Yes, you'll have total freedom to do what you want to, living with me".
There was a song singing "It might be love", and I asked your attention to this. And you understood and smiled.
I walked out of the pub, and you went back to me and asked me a kiss... We we kissed. It was wonderful. (It is our secret).
Jul 20th - I saw you at the pub. You said "I am almost free of him", "I saw your callings". A friend of you were holding you. I said to you "I don't like this kind of thing". You replyed: "Please, don't care about that, it is only friendship". Coincidence: we were wearing green t-shirts.

I made a poetry for you:

I fell in love with him

It has been nice
since I saw you
for the first time
"And after all this time
you're still the one"...
"Looks like we made it...

Balacubaco... Jun 20th, 2008
Jul 21st - At 1AM I see you again. You said you'd call me up, if posible.

Jul 22nd - I waited for your calling, but you did not call me... I become sad and blue all the day long, and thought a lot of thing as "he does not want me"... I tried to call you several times, but you cellphone was always out of service, or simply did not answered.

Jul 23rd - After going to a musical with my friend Louise, I went to the pub just to see you. The pub was closed at 10PM. My cellphone was not working, so I could not call your 'home phone'. I was sad and blue, so I return home... At Calçada District my phone was on again, and aI called you. Your boyfriend answered the phone and invited me to come back to play cards. So, I went back to São Caetano District and met you at the bus station. You asked me a little kiss, and I gave you it. I asked for more the a little kiss, and you gave me... Oh! I was already happy, and become MORE and MORE happy!!!
At your boyfriend home we play games and drank tea and jwice with Louise, River and Felícia de Buá...
Jul 24th - At 00:30AM I was still there at you home... playing... The rule of the game was single: who would lose, should pay something... You lost, and YOU asked to pay a kiss, and I was kissed by you TWO, or THREE times... NICE!! Wonderful!
I returned home happy! At 8:30AM Martins Jr called me up and gave your news: You asked him to say me you were so sorry because you could not call me up or meet me as we combined.
I am so happy to have met you, guy.

Jul 24th - At 9PM I went to the pub and met you there... I drank beer and other drinks. You told me that a friend of you said to your boyfriend about our kiss from yesterday night.

Jul 25th - 1AM - I was in the pub and saw you again...

I wrote a poetry for you:

Para Silver

Eu sou o que sou e não sou
Lusco – fusco – Exu – um vento
Um sopro – um ogro – um nada
Um choro - um riso - um lamento
Sou uma bruxa e um saci
Invisível – incompreensível

Encantado

Sou um sonho: você!

24 de julho de 2008, 22 horas

Jul 25th - At 10PM I went to the pub again, just to see you there. Well, You were so sad and blue, so I become sad and blue as well. I asked you the motivation for your unhappiness, and you told me it was some problems you were facing, and asked me to get happy... As the time was going passing, you were changing your humour, as I did.
I wrote another poem in English for you... I invited you to come with me to the boite to have fun. You said it would be nice, but unfortunatelly you could not go out that time... I said you to be happy, and you said me to have fun at the boite...
I went to the boite with friend, had a lot of fun, danced, but all the time you were in my mind...

Here it be the poem:

Happy - Unhappy

I would die
To let you fly
I would leave
To let you live...

For your hapiness
I would be unhappy

Balacubaco, Jul 25th, 2008, at 10PM

Only you inspire me to write poetry in English!

Jul 26th - At 5PM I saw you at the pub... We talked a lot today, about you, about me, about us... And about Vanessa da Mata. You and me were at the Castro Alves Theather, in the same show of Vanessa last year... and both of us just bought the ticket and the close time...

Today morning, Martins boiled a coffee to me, him and River. He took three glasses, one green (without wing) and TWO white; we went to a restaurant, and the waiter brought TWO similar plates for them and ONE different to me; he brought also a pair of knifes and fork similar for them and ONE different to me, beside TWO glasses similar to them, and ONE different to me... (coincidences?)

Jul 26th - At 1AM. When you entered the car, your boyfriend asked you to put your ring, a sign of your marriage. You said "now you want to tell everyone you are married"... We went together to the Disco: Me, Martins, River, Louise, Cícero and you. All the time you touched my arm, while I was driving.

At the Disco, my friends made a barrier to avoid Cícero to see us handing hands... My hand was seating, because I was so nervous and emotianally touched. We kissing each other several times, and it was the more marvalous sensation I felt this whole year. I really feel I love you, baby...
But, unfortunatelly, Louise took you away from me and Cícero. She thought it would help us to stay closer... But it made Cícero become mad at you, and he took you for a place I really did not see anymore... We lost them, because Cícero was hiding himself anywhere in the Disco.
I came back home earlier and only at Aruba Hut, at afternoon, I could see you again.
Martins and River slept at my home, and in the afternoon we went to Pituaçu Park ride bicicle, and than we went to Aruba Beach, because some friends of our would perform a show there... And, mainly, because you were going to go there to see the same show...
I hold you when I met you there... and become so happy!!
I said you that I had gone to ride bicicles... and I remember you that I had gone to the restaurant yesterday, and that today I returned to Aruba Beach, just like a sign of sky repeating the same situations from the time I met you...

Jul 27th - At 8PM your boyfriend entered to MSN, and told me he was not opened the pub today, because he was drank and have to work tomorrow... I become SAD, because I was almost going out to the pub, just to see you again...
Now, I will see you only on Wed.

Jul 27th - At 9:11 PM Martins call me up and gave me a good new: you had fought with Cícero and had broken up. I shoutted and jumpped alone at home, happy for me and for you, but at the same time sad because of Cícero.

Jul 28th - At 12:52 PM you called me up and told me everything about your fight with your boyfriend... You said you had gone home, but before you went to walk on the beach alone, and that you lost your last bus to Simões Filho, and that you returned to Cícero house and that you slept there, and than went home in the morning... I said "you've called me up and I'g done everything to comfort you in my arms..." You cried a lot, and I comforted you and said I was there for you, waiting for you and on. I adviced you to hear Vanessa da Mata, and to cry a lot, and write a lot of thing and than tear the paper and throu it in the garbagge, and to try to think about other things, and to talk a lot with your mother...

Later I called you up and asked if you were well, and than I said "I'll go to meet you there and talk a little bit with you, dear", and you answered "it is not necessary, I am right". Anyway I want to you home, and met you at 6:30 PM, close to Police Station. I gave you a book of poetry, a kyering and a CD of Carlos Drummond de Andrade.
From there, we went to your sister house. There, I knew you mother Antonia, your sister Simone and your two nieces Ana Carolina and Maria Vitória.
Than, we came back to Salvador, went to Ribeira District and meet a pizza with Coca Cola. Than, we went to Ponta de Humaitá to see the sea together. Than, we went to my house, where we talked a lot, I shown you the blog I made for you, and we talk more, kissed a lot a slept a wonderful night...
Jul 29th - Today morning I got out to job and let you there at my home... I miss you already.